What do you see everyday? You wake up under a roof (made by man), you get in the shower (made by man), drive to work in a car (made by man), watch T.V. (made by man), stare at your phone (made by man). I could go on and on. All day most people are surrounded by things made by man. We get food from a store, we cook inside, we spend our lives looking at everything man made. So people start thinking man is responsible for all there is.
I was standing in a garden looking at a pepper plant when it dawned on me. GOD MADE THAT. Now, I've grown flowers and I have watched them be destroyed. Kids pick'em off, dogs dig them up, chickens peck them apart. They die and they don't come back. I've had flower beds for years and they are thin........and sad.........and pitiful.......and easily killed. Not that pepper plant, we picked peppers, and more peppers and I few days later there they are hanging off everywhere again. God made it that way, so we can eat, be fruitful and live. He made sure there was enough for us.
I think if everyone started looking at what God made they would start to see that he is responsible for what is here. I pray at night when I check on the chickens, I look at the sky in wonder of what God made. He's undeniable there.
I fail constantly, I have a picture in my head of who I want to be and how I want to be. I have to constantly remind myself what I am doing, the direction I am headed. I get distracted and emotional and loose my way.
I have been watching videos of people that seem to know what they are doing while they wait for Jesus. It made me wonder what am I doing, am I really prepared?
If you have read about my cats you already know I'm crazy..........The job God gave me is to save cats. It's a small job but it's my job and he has always reminded me when I get off track. I wondered, am I just supposed to be saving cats while I wait for Jesus? It never felt like that was the right answer. I prayed about it and wondered and waited. It really bothered me. Jesus is coming back for his bride and you don't want to be out of oil when he gets here. I got my oil tonight.
I read most of the Bible awhile ago, looking for something. I decided I would be more self-sufficient, I think God wants you to use the things he has given you. He gave us the land and the animals, he wants us to work hard and make something for ourselves. I live on about 10 acres, I have enough room to do somethings but I do not have a lot of money so I made a "10 year plan". I look forward to being 40, because when I'm 40 I'm going to be where I want to be.
My first year is this year and it was "Year of the chicken". I got chickens, raised them, collected eggs, butchered chickens and hatched more chickens. I learned a lot. Food is something else when you have to kill it, did I mention I love animals and don't kill things? I am learning to take care of myself and teaching my family, I am learning to grow a garden. I'm doing this things because I read the Bible and that's what I got. God doesn't want you dependent or taking from others. He wants you using what he gave you. He gave me a home and land, animals and a strong body to work it.
Please don't get me wrong, I am lazy. Shoot I'm sitting on the couch staring at the computer right now. I just got done thinking about how stupid what someone said on facebook was. I made my daughter cry tonight over something I could have let go, it was not that important. We made up before bed (thank goodness). I spend a lot of time in walmart buying chips. I'm not independent.
So back to the point, I was checking on the chickens and I always look at the stars when I do. I look hoping to see Jesus drop down out of them and I talk to God. It normally goes something like this, I apologize for everything I messed up that day. I ask God to put me on the right path whatever it may be and I thank him for all I have. Every once in awhile I ask for a missing cat to come back home. I pray me and my daughter will get along better the next day and that nothing bad will happen to Tom he is to little. I pray for everyone that is scared, that Jesus will wrap his arms around them and take away their pain. Bad things happen in life, bad things happen to good people. It says that it will in the Bible, I tell God that I don't understand his plan and that's ok with me. There was a extra twinkly star tonight so I stayed out extra long staring at it. I do that often. I have been sick and sitting on the couch a lot this week. I keep thinking that I will be so grateful when I am not sick that I will not waste my time like before. I will fix the lean-to where the hay goes, I'll do what I been putting off. Then I remembered why I was ever doing any of that to begin with.
I read the Bible that's why.
While I wait for Jesus, I am preparing. I am growing chickens to eat and getting goats to provide milk for us, to take us through the hard times ahead while we wait for Jesus. I will have meat rabbits, grow vegetables and can them and I am working the land like God said too, the reason he gave us rule over it. I will look at the stars and tell my children how God made everything. I will save cats because God did not make beautiful creatures like them for people to abuse them and when Jesus gets here I will be humbled but hopefully not ashamed of how I have spent the time that God gave me.
I have not accomplished all of these things. I got off track and being sick gave me time to sit and think about it.
Blessed is that slave whom the master finds at work when he comes.